I’ve been feeling..less than super lately. Extremely less than super.
One could say I’ve been more depressed than I have been in a few months. I don’t know what’s come over me. I’m just…always sad.
Sometimes I find myself breaking away from reality and not even…thinking. Like I’m sure I have that far-away look that I get when I actually am daydreaming, but when someone wakes me up and asks what I was thinking…honestly there’s nothing.
I feel like there’s a sadness in my head. If that makes sense. It’s swirling around and I kinda can’t make it go away. I’m trying, I am. I thought maybe if I got a job I’d feel a little better.
I don’t. I feel worse. I actually feel…tons worse. Like nothing I ever do will amount to anything. And I’m sorta embarrassed to be working at Staples. Though I guess I shouldn’t be.
I just wanted something more, but I guess I have to wait. I’m not worth something more yet. I don’t feel worth much of anything right now.
